Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I'm All Aces

Deal or No Deal



Late nights



No Love To Give



This might be wrong to put up here but I was amazed that someone would actually post this on facebook. WOW!

Everything has turned into a dream
It means so much to me
My friends, my crew my everything
Everything has become so real
This is all I need
You'll never know what is like
To have what we have
So fuck yourself up and forget everything
So fuck yourself up and go back once again
Now you go ahead and turn your back
Walk away run your mouth
You have no fucking idea
What this means anymore
This is mine
This is what I stand for
Straight Edge
-Down To Nothing - I'm So Lucky-

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Spit My Last Breath

I love fortune cookies



We dress alike



And drink TOO much lemonade together


<3



Man Wrestling



This show was a blast!



New couch for a night

and a new friend


Like most things in this world



Busy week, kind of I guess. As busy as it can get. Still bummed about not hitting up Long Island but made some new friends and had some fun!



Two ways to choose,
On a razor's edge,
Remain behind,
Go straight ahead.
Room full of people, room for just one,
If I can't break out now, the time just won't come.
Watch me unwind.
Rejected and depressed.
Everything I am I hate.
Confused, directionless.
Knowing this is all we had.
Existing on best terms we can until
Death takes us from our own fucking hands.
But nothing can touch us now.
I tell myself that I know I don't want to be the man who tells stories
Of the all things that were ripped from my hands before I truly grasped them and I know if we shutdown in stages then let this be the last time
That I ever fucking gave a shit, with my head in my hands, I never meant anything more than this,
This is the story of permanence.
This is the story of unchained momentum
This is the story of everything, we ever wanted.
-Carpathian - Permanent-

Monday, June 8, 2009

6 Months

I love night walks in Edinboro

Join me?


We <3 Pie


But we <3 eachother more


Found my score to be funny



I took a walk through this city tonight
Retracing steps etched in my mind,
Of the darkest days that we survived
The troubled youth of suburban life
And at the heart of that beach town
I swore to you our innocence
All you saw was difference, afraid of change, afraid of ambition
Time wont wait for me
I wont live life, lost and confused
I'll find direction with or without you
Now bunked up on these hardwood floors
I'm past tired and sleep eludes me
The punk rock show still sweats from our pores
Our minds are racing and our bones are still shaking
And we all can't sleep tonight knowing tomorrow we'll do it again
On the road in the AM, the rising sun fills the walls of the van
All the letters never sent
Because all my time was spent
On stories you'll never know
Written out of my mind
Guided by white lines on these endless roads
We have nothing in common with anyone
-Carpathian - Insomnia-

Saturday, June 6, 2009

The Long Haul

But tonight after the show, everyone is hanging out at John's Pizza like usual and among the people there, there were a select few that I had the pleasure of spending 45 days with last summer.(Mark, Tyler, Shawn and Jason...Derek was not there sadly) But we were all telling our stories from last summer, about tour and hilarious things that happened and we noticed that a year ago exactly we were doing that exact thing, at John's eating shitty food after a show only this year we are not getting ready for a month and a half of tour. It sucks because it has been a year since I was truly happy I think. I mean I am happy right now but not like that. No care in the world except how long it was going to take to the next city. I just miss it! I had a blast and can't wait to do it again sometime!
June 6th - July 21st xRepresentx Summer Tour 08'


BUT!!!!

Me and this man got to hangout! Stoked on that!

Whitey AFB and Tony!!


Sadly, some dillhole I live with did this and didn't fix it




In this heartless world, there is nothing left inside.
It's hard to put your faith in anything,
those who are close turn their backs in the blink of an eye.
Straight edge will remain a lasting constant until your last breath.
It'll never forget or outgrow, time to show it the same respect.
Don't call me drug free.
There's nothing more worthless than a noble cause without actual conviction.
The way that I've decided to live my life cannot be lessened or brushed aside.
And if you choose to live against, don't leave any room for a change of heart.
Realize straight edge is a life long pledge, and never accept and fucking different.
Accept the truth, or accept you're weak.
It's fucking sink or swim, black and white. No in between.
I'll spell it out so there's not fucking mistakes.
You are here for life, otherwise you're a fake.
Dropping the label's only a matter of time before your lack of commitment comes to surface.
Don't say you're straight edge
unless you know you can make it, and you're in it
for the long haul.
-xRepresentx - The Long Haul-

Thursday, June 4, 2009

VIVA

I have had a lot on my mind recently. I just found out news that could possibly change my life forever for some shit I did a year ago! I follow the blog of the singer of the band Carpathian and I feel like I can relate to not only the lyrics he writes but his life in general. He is in debt, living in a ghetto barely making it. I am still sleeping on a couch (granted it isn't in a ghetto) living out of a bag with just enough money to get by. Since Spring maybe even mid Winter I have done nothing but be pissed off. Hating myself and everything around me, but at the same time I have felt my best. I am all alone but surrounded by the greatest people in the world. It is weird to be at rock bottom and at an all time high in the same day. I don't know where or what I will be doing in 3 months. I don't know what I even want anymore but I do know that I wouldn't trade any of these memories for anything else. Rollins said it best and maybe it is time I go break my nose on "The Terrirtory" and get a few more stories.

Bought some paint



While you are at your 9 to 5




I wonder if this is what it's like to be a seventies kid?
Standing at the edge of the world, screaming
"I just don't feel like growing up today"
This whole city in shades of panic and pantone
We're on the run again this feeling in our bones
We're so fucking high and tonight's the night.
We slept through nine to five, now we're doing it right
I've never felt so alive with my crew at my side
I'm a fucking criminal, and paintings my crime
I've fucked this whole city one wall at a time
On the fucking run again
This feeling in our bones
I wonder if this is what it's like
To be a seventies kid?
-Carpathian - Seventyk-

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Holding Hands Is For Girls

But I still enjoy it!

I have been told it is funny I enjoy to cook and bake but I really do love it. Even if it is something simple.







Dinner for me and my friends!

Come over sometime and let me cook something for you!



Excuse me - Scumbag!
Saturday night and we're ready to go
Grabbed some 40's on the way to the show
Parking lot pimpin' everything's all right
Slammed a pint of jack and we're ready to fight!
Don't fucking fight - lets party tonight!
If you're straight edge don't worry, hey, i'll buy you a sprite!
Don't fucking fight - lets party tonight!
Fuck it!
Saturday night and we're ready to go
Grabbed some 40's on the way to the show
Parking lot pimpin' everything's all right
Took a gram up my face and i'm up all night
Don't fucking fight - lets party tonight!
If you're straight edge - don't worry, i'll buy you a sprite!
Don't fucking fight - lets party tonigiht.
-Hoods - Don't Fight, Lets Party Tonight-